Hola
Everybody,
It’s
been a great summer at least weather-wise. Don’t get caught up in the future.
Enjoy the summer now while you still
can. Sometimes it is our tendency to fantasize about the future or reminiscing
on the past that makes us miss the present moment.
Monkey Mind
Just as a monkey swinging through the
trees grabs one branch and lets it go only to seize another, so too, that which
is called thought, mind or consciousness arises and disappears continually both
day and night.
-- The Buddha
-- The Buddha
Have you ever caught yourself comparing
yourself to others? If I am honest, I have to admit that I have. At least I can
sense the impulse -- the tendency -- to compare myself to others. This is a
form of conceit. I define conceit as that activity of the mind that compares
itself with others because all forms of this of thinking -- whether it is I’m
better than or I’m less than
or I’m just the same as -- is rooted in a feeling of self, or the “I
am.” This conceit is probably one of the most deep-rooted forms of conditioning
we possess. In Buddhism this type of internal activity is called the monkey mind.
Many people mistake insight for change,
but this is a faulty notion. For example, we may understand that conceit may be
rooted in a concept of a self that does not exist, but the habit to compare
persists. The one thing that many discover early on their path is that what we
normally call reality is actually only one aspect of a larger reality. There is
a deeper experience outside of our individual experiences in the ebb and flow
of our rushed lives. If you practice Buddhist meditation, for example, you
quickly realize that the stream of thoughts we take to be ourselves is
momentary -- fleeting and constantly changing. If we make the effort to
experience this thought stream without identifying with it we realize very quickly that we
definitely are not our thoughts.
The best antidote to conceit I have
come across is to bring to it a clear awareness and focus on the fact that this
stream of consciousness is constantly changing. I’ll give you an example of the
monkey mind gone amok. While an undergraduate, I participated in an
experiential exercise as part of a course. Part of the instruction was to in
complete silence observe our thought-streams -- the internal dialogue --
without giving in to the habit of commenting or passing judgment. In effect,
this was a form of meditation.
After a while, I noticed some people
were jotting down notes in their notebooks. I quickly surmised that these
people were doing this wrong. The instructions were clear: no
communication, complete silence! After a while, I began to doubt myself and
began thinking that maybe it was I who was getting it wrong: perhaps I was
missing something essential that the note takers had grasped! Back and forth I
went in this way until the exercise was over and I discovered that the note
taking was neither right nor wrong. Some people were merely jotting down notes
so that they would be able to relate the experience more accurately. Yet, I
spent the whole time going ruminating over whether I had gotten it “right” in
comparison to the others. LMAO!
I think what’s most useful is to begin
to recognize that the comparing mind, the conceit of “I’m better than” or “I’m
less than,” can be the source of a lot of insanity. It has the power to make us
feel separated and apart from others and reinforces the myth of a separate
self. I keep things simple and I follow the formula that love is an opening up,
while fear is a contraction. The myth of a separate self is a psychological and
physical contraction.
When we bring a clear awareness (not
analysis!) to the monkey mind, we can begin to learn to be with it in a
friendly way, without being caught up and identifying with it. When we
experience the stream in this way, it simply becomes another empty thought,
which we don’t have to condemn nor believe as they pass through the landscape
of our mind like so many clouds. The mind stays free. Or as we used to say a
long time ago: free your mind, your ass will follow.
My name is Eddie and I’m in recovery
from civilization…
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