Hola mi gente,
“Happy Holidays!” for those who don’t. J
“Happy Holidays!” for those who don’t. J
The following is fiction. It is based on actual events and
is the foundation for one of the stories in my forthcoming book of short
stories I'll never finish tentatively titled Ataques de Nervios (Nervous Attacks) or 704 E. 5th
St. (or some shit like that). However, I have taken huge liberties with parts
of the story, the characters, and time line.
Moral indignation is jealousy with a halo.
-- H.G. Wells, The Wife of Sir Isaac Harman
-- H.G. Wells, The Wife of Sir Isaac Harman
It’s so cold she can’t feel her
feet. She’s wearing slippers in the midst of a raging Nor’easter. She’s afraid
and her threadbare coat can’t protect her from the 40-50 mile per hour winds.
It’s the night before Noche Buena and she’s alone, keeping vigil outside a home
in a white section of lower Manhattan, but she’s here because her kids are in
need... there’s no one around and she despairs. Her hands are numb from the
cold and her feet ache.
It seemed as if it were hours ago
when ‘Galo left with Gangster with instructions that if she saw anyone, she
should whistle. In actuality, only minutes have passed. Now she wonders if she
can whistle, her face is frozen, and they’ve been gone so long. What if the
police come?
Finally, they come rushing out the
building with stuffed pillowcases and as she starts to run with them she falls,
she can’t feel her toes. Gangster and ‘Galo pick her up and they make their way
hurriedly back to the Puerto Rican section of the Lower East Side, which takes
too long and she’s crying, she’s in agony. ‘Galo stops to look at her feet and
mutters, “Shit!” under his breath.
They hurry home.
They finally get home and by then,
she’s crying in agony. ‘Galo takes off the slippers and thinks she has
frostbite. She weeps, but tries to stifle her cries, fearful she’ll awaken the
children. Unbeknownst to them, her oldest son, all of five-years-old, watches
through a crack in the bedroom doorway. He’s afraid.
They call ‘Galo’s sister, who takes
one look at the stuffed pillowcases and looks down at the young mother, as if
noting her lack of moral standing. What
kind of mother are you? Her looks seems to say. ‘Galo asks her to look at
her feet and the sister says it’s not frostbite, but that she should go to the
emergency room anyway. The young mother refuses, afraid. Afraid of the
consequences of the act she just helped commit and afraid of what they may say
about her toes that throb with a dull pain now.
They give ‘Galo’s sister a gold
watch from the stolen loot, and she’s delighted. It’s an expensive watch, very
pretty. She gives the young mother another look condemnation and admonishes her
for behaving in such an un-Christian manner. The young mother says nothing and
thanks her for looking after the children.
That Christmas was a good
Christmas, or at least the children thought so. There was food, there were
gifts under the tree, and the young mother seemed so happy though her children
asked when they noticed that she limped a little when she walked. She had a
brand new pair of boots, the only concession she made for the oldest will
always remember the James Bond attaché case, complete with gadgets and it even
shot rubber bullets if you pressed a hidden button. He also got a chemistry set
that he used for hours upon hours... She made sure her children got our gifts
before ‘Galo and Gangster would leave with the bulk of the loot, returning only
when the money was spent on drugs. She didn’t even get herself a decent coat.
However, her children got warm coats, gloves, scarves, and long underwear.
Her son never knew why she was
crying that wintry night all those years ago. He thought they were fighting.
But he was not surprised at her sacrifice -- the choices she made so that she
could make sure her children were and had what they needed. Somehow she always
made it right, even if it meant compromising her values or her reputation. She
didn’t care, only her children mattered. Still, she was ashamed and part of the
reason why her children had perfect posture is because she taught them to walk
tall, with their heads held high. It was the last bastion against the shame --
that she made certain her children would walk proudly.
Most importantly, she taught them
what really matters.
My name is Eddie and I’m in
recovery from civilization…
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